In The Abyss
There is nothing in this darkness. I try to calm myself even when fear start to grip me from inside. I will not survive this isn’t it? All this time, all the luck, all the courage, it all has run out…
I try to take one step ahead, the ground feel like sand. My body feel heavy and I can’t move very well. I afraid to take another step, so I start to touch the ground.
The sand is shifting on my hand, a coarse sand, a cold sand. Every grain is as heavy as a rock, yet it feel so delicate to the touch, like touching a silk.
I try to open my eyes as wide as I can, trying to find anything in this darkness.
Cold wind blow through me, along with it is the sand. I try to cover my eyes and I feel ice on my hand and a glimmer of light in the far far horizon. I try to see through the crack of my hand, even when wind keep hitting me in the face and my whole body. More than anything, more than warmness, I need to see the light.
I cover my eyes with my hand and I slowly open my hand just to let a little bit of crack of light going in. Yet there is nothing, there is only darkness.
I start to remember her. Her word keep shouting at my head.
‘Duncan, you have lived through the hell, but I have yet seen the end of it’
Her face is sad, her eyes almost cry but she try to hold back. I should have comfort her, yet I curse my silence. I don’t know what should I do.
The wind dies down, then there is nothing again, I can hear my blood move, my heart beat slower and slower. My ear start to hear what isn’t there. I start to pray just to hear a sound, a little sound.
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Yet nothing came out from my mouth. There is nothing, not even a whisper. There is nothing, except a cold feeling near my heart.
I take out the dead flashlight from my pocket, that cold steel has been near to my heart all this time. Even in this eternal darkness, that thing still poke at me, reminding me that this one thing is near me.
In nothingness, I hope that the this dead flashlight somehow, somehow came to light. I pray to the Virgin. Then I click.
There is a flicker on my hand, just for a split second, then it dies again. I click again, then there is nothing. Finally, I pray and pray, then with all remaining hope I click again. It flicker for a moment and dies.
My heart sink deeper, I have lost.
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What?
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I try to click my flashlight again, it flicker again and dies.
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I see something, something flicker just a moment, a very little moment. It blink in the darkness and disappear.
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I stand up, I run to the only thing that exists in this darkness. Even thou I feel heaviness on all my body, even when sand is shifting and cold wind slowly start to blow again on my face.
I raise my hand again and click the flashlight
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‘MY NAME, MY NAME IS DUNCAN!!’ I shout as hard as I can, I barely able to hear myself. But I don’t care.
‘I AM HERE!!’
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I start to run even faster, hoping that something on the far end will see me, whatever it is.
‘ANA!! JAMES!! I AM HERE!’
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‘I AM SORRY, I AM SORRY!’
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‘PLEASE, I AM HERE!’
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My breath start to run out, I try to keep forcing my self while keep flickering the flashlight. I definitely see it, I see the light replying to me on the horizon of this darkness. I trip on something and I fell straight to my face. I grip the flashlight even harder. But I feel something shatter.
I feel the flashlight with my hand, the glass is no longer there, it broke. I refuse to believe, so I pray once again and click the flashlight with all my remaining hope. It flicker for the last time.
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I stand up again and decide to keep running, this is my last chance. I run to the darkness, into the flickering light in the far distance.
I don’t know how far I run, I don’t know how long I run.
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Both of my knee fall.
But the light has start to probing even faster now. Hundreds of green light blink over each other. Most of them is just as big as small dot. They start to cover the horizon, blinking back and forth in horizon in front of me and on my back.
Millions of light now cover the dark horizon.
I stand up, and the ground also rise in front of me.
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I see the faint light of the .
Another then rise from the ground.
I realize that in front of me is no longer the never ending darkness. I stand in front of dark beach, covered in dark ocean.
The whale start to appear at the horizon one by one, they fly into the sky.
Then water start to rise and it taken me in the torrenting rush.
I hear the low sound of the whale while the water swallow me whole, I no longer can tell which way is up and down.
But it doesn’t matter, the cold water taken me and I am lost in the wave.
I reach out my hand to anywhere but there is nothing but water, I can only see the light is keep blinking. I feel a low roar in my body and something is crashing me.
A black whale has come to me, it open its mouth and I finally realize.
This is the end.